Colorado

I AM PRETTY MUCH THE LUCKIEST GIRL ALIVE. I HAD THE CHANCE TO GO TO COLORADO FOR A FEW DAYS AND SPEND THEM WITH MY SPECIAL BOY. THE DAY I FOUND OUT I WAS GOING TO BE ABLE TO HEAD OVER THERE I COULDN'T STOP SCREAMING AND JUMPING AROUND. IT WAS THE BEST NEWS I HAD FOR OVER A MONTH. AFTER I BOUGHT MY PLANE TICKET ME AND PRESTON HAD A LITTLE HAPPY DANCE SHARED VIA FACETIME. HAHA IT WAS QUITE THE SIGHT.

I HAD TO WAIT TEN DAYS BEFORE I COULD FLY OUT AND IT WAS TORTURE! I WANTED TO LEAVE RIGHT THAN AND THERE BUT I COULDN'T. AT THE SAME TIME THOUGH IT DIDN'T FEEL REAL. IT FELT LIKE A COMPLETE DREAM. EVEN WHEN THE DAY FINALLY CAME TO HEAD TO THE AIRPORT, IT STILL DIDN'T FEEL REAL. 

GETTING ON THE PLANE WAS A LITTLE STRESSFUL, I HADN'T BEEN ON ONE SINCE I WAS SIX SO I DIDN'T REALLY REMEMBER ANYTHING. BUT EVERYTHING WORKED OUT PERFECTLY. ONCE I LANDED IN DENVER I STARTED TO GET REALLY NERVOUS. I COULDN'T BELIEVE I WAS ABOUT TO SEE PRESTON AFTER FIVE WEEKS OF BEING SEPARATED. I SERIOUSLY FELT SICK TO MY STOMACH. WHEN PRESTON TURNED THE CORNER AND CAME INTO VIEW, MY STOMACH DROPPED. I KEPT TELLING MYSELF THIS WASN'T REAL AND I'M GOING TO WAKE UP ANY SECOND. BUT WHEN HE PULLED ME INTO HIS ARMS THAT FIRST TIME, I KNEW I WAS AWAKE. I CAN'T EVEN DESCRIBE HOW AMAZING IT WAS. I COULDN'T STOP SMILING, I WAS SO HAPPY.

I DIDN'T REALIZE HOW MUCH I WAS REALLY GOING TO LOVE COLORADO. I THOUGHT I WOULD GO OUT THERE AND HUMOR PRESTON. YOU KNOW, SAY I LIKE IT AND ITS SO GREAT BUT REALLY NOT CARE ALL THAT MUCH. BOY WAS I IN FOR A SURPRISE! ITS SO PRETTY THERE. I'M USED TO BEING SURROUNDED BY MOUNTAINS AND PRETTY MUCH FLAT AREA BUT COLORADO IS NOT EVEN CLOSE TO MOUNTAINS AND ITS ALL HILLS! AT FIRST I DIDN'T REALLY LIKE IT BUT THE MORE TIME I SPENT THERE, THE MORE I REALLY LOVED IT. I REALLY AM CONSIDERING LIVING THERE AT SOME POINT IN MY LIFE.

HE SHOWED ME SO MANY THINGS AND I LOVED LEARNING ALL ABOUT HIS LIFE OVER THERE. IT'S CRAZY TO THINK I DIDN'T KNOW HIM MY ENTIRE LIFE AND JUST FOR THE LAST FEW MONTHS WHILE I WAS LIVING IN OREM FOR SCHOOL. THERE'S A WHOLE OTHER PART OF HIM I DON'T KNOW AND I'M REALLY GRATEFUL I WAS ABLE TO SEE A LITTLE GLIMPSE OF IT. MEETING HIS FAMILY WAS PROBABLY THE SCARIEST PART ABOUT THE WHOLE THING. I WAS ABSOLUTELY TERRIFIED BECAUSE I WANTED TO MAKE A GOOD IMPRESSION. I THINK IT WENT WELL... THEY'RE SUCH NICE PEOPLE AND I LOVE HIS NIECE AND NEPHEW. THEY ARE FREAKING ADORABLE!! I HOPE I CAN SEE THEM AGAIN SOME DAY.. HOPEFULLY IN TWO YEARS :) HIS FRIENDS ARE SO STINKING FUNNY! I'VE TALKED TO THEM BEFORE ON THE PHONE AND TEXTING BUT I'M HAPPY I GOT TO SEE THEM AND HANG OUT WITH THEM. THEY ARE GREAT GUYS.

OUR LAST DAY TOGETHER WE WENT ON OUR LAST DATE FOR TWO YEARS.. IT WAS AMAZING AND DEPRESSING AT THE SAME TIME. IT WAS ALSO OUR SIX MONTH ANNIVERSARY DATE. ITS NOT OUR ANNIVERSARY UNTIL TOMORROW BUT I WASN'T ABLE TO STAY IN COLORADO UNTIL SATURDAY. HE TOOK ME TO A MONGOLIAN PLACE AND IT WAS SO GOOD! I WISH UTAH HAD PLACES LIKE THAT BUT I GUESS THAT GIVES ME AN EXCUSE TO TAKE A TRIP BACK TO COLORADO. 

IT WAS SO HARD THIS MORNING AT THE AIRPORT TO WALK AWAY FROM PRESTON, KNOWING I WON'T SEE HIM AGAIN FOR TWO YEARS.I CAN'T EXPLAIN HOW HARD IT WAS BECAUSE NO ONE KNOWS WHAT IT FEELS LIKE UNLESS THEY'VE BEEN THROUGH IT TOO. I KNOW HE'S MAKING THE RIGHT DECISION BUT IT DOESN'T MAKE IT ANY EASIER. I JUST CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HIM AGAIN.