Five Month Anniversary

YESTERDAY WAS MINE AND PRESTON'S FIVE MONTH ANNIVERSARY! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S ALREADY BEEN THAT LONG. IT SERIOUSLY FEELS LIKE JUST YESTERDAY WE WERE BARELY GETTING TO KNOW EACH OTHER. HE MAKES ME SO INCREDIBLY HAPPY AND I CAN'T EVEN TELL YOU HOW LUCKY I AM TO HAVE HIM. HE JUST SEND ME THE SWEETEST LITTLE TEXTS LETTING ME KNOW HE'S THINKING ABOUT ME AND MISSING ME. I WISH I COULD JUST TELL EVERYONE I MEET HOW DANG LUCKY I AM HE'S ALL MINE. 

SO I DECIDED TO SEND HIM A LITTLE PACKAGE SO HE WOULD KNOW TODAY WAS A SPECIAL DAY. IT WAS A TON OF WORK BUT WORTH EVERY SECOND. AND SINCE HE'S GOING TO BE TOO FAR AWAY FOR ME TO SEND HIM PACKAGES ONCE HE LEAVES ON HIS MISSION, I WANTED HIM TO KNOW WHAT IT FELT LIKE TO GET ONE! IT WAS THE BEST FEELING EVER GETTING A SNAPCHAT FROM HIM ASKING WHAT IN THE WORLD THIS BOX WAS WITH OUR NAMES ON IT. I LOVED EVERY MOMENT!

I WAS THINKING ABOUT IT TODAY, AND YOU KNOW WHAT? THE HARDEST PART IS OVER. EVERYONE IS ALWAYS SEARCHING FOR THE RIGHT PERSON AND EVEN AFTER THEY FIND SOMEONE THEY COULD SPEND FOREVER WITH, YOU STILL HAVE TO GET THEM TO LIKE YOU! I MEAN COME ON, IF THEY'RE NOT INTERESTED IN YOU THEN YOU'RE GOING NO WHERE WITH THIS RELATIONSHIP. BUT GUESS WHAT! I FOUND THAT PERSON.. AND HE FEELS THE SAME WAY ABOUT ME! SO WHY CAN'T I WAIT A COUPLE YEARS FOR HIM? IT DOESN'T SOUND LIKE SOMETHING THAT IS THAT OUTRAGEOUS. I'M WILLING TO MAKE THAT SACRIFICE. PLUS IF I GO ON MY OWN MISSION THAN WE WILL BE GETTING HOME AROUND THE SAME TIME, HOW GREAT IS THAT?! I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL THESE TWO YEARS ARE UP.

Temple Trip

THE MOST AMAZING EXPERIENCE. I WISH WE COULD HAVE STAYED LONGER BUT I GUESS THAT JUST MEANS WE'LL HAVE TO GO AGAIN SOON! HOPEFULLY IN THE NEXT COUPLE OF WEEKS WE'LL TAKE ANOTHER TRIP OVER THERE. I JUST LOVE GOING TO THE TEMPLE.

Mission?

I THINK I'M GOING TO SERVE A MISSION FOR THE CHURCH OF JESUS CHRIST OF LATTER-DAY SAINTS. I'M JUST GOING TO GET MY PATRIARCHAL BLESSING AND SEE HOW IT GOES. IT'S A REALLY SCARY DECISION AND I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE I'M GOING TO DO IT. BUT I HONESTLY THINK IT'S THE RIGHT CHOICE FOR ME TO MAKE AND I'M STARTING TO GET REALLY EXCITED. PLUS IT'LL MAKE IT A LOT EASIER ON ME WHEN PRESTON LEAVES BECAUSE I'LL BE GONE AS WELL. AND IF EVERYTHING GOES WELL ME AND HIM WILL GET HOME AROUND THE SAME TIME AND THEN HOPEFULLY WE CAN JUST PICK UP WHERE WE LEFT OFF. I'M GOING TO START PRAYING ABOUT IT AND ASK HEAVENLY FATHER IF I'M MAKING THE RIGHT DECISION SO I KNOW WHETHER THIS IS THE PATH I NEED TO TAKE. I'M REALLY GOING TO MISS MY FAMILY BUT IT'S ONLY FOR A YEAR AND A HALF AND THAT'LL FLY BY. I CAN'T EVEN BEGIN TO WRITE DOWN ALL THE THINGS THAT ARE RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND! I JUST WANT TO GET UP AND LEAVE RIGHT NOW. I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO SERVE A MISSION, AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER, BUT I NEVER THOUGHT I ACTUALLY WOULD. EVER SINCE THEY CHANGED THE AGE LIMIT FOR YOUNG WOMEN TO SERVE IT'S BEEN WEIGHING ON MY MIND. I HAVEN'T THOUGHT ABOUT IT FOR THE LAST FEW MONTHS JUST BECAUSE I'VE BEEN SO PREOCCUPIED WITH PRESTON BUT EVER SINCE HE WENT BACK TO COLORADO I CAN'T HELP BUT THINK ABOUT WHERE I NEED TO BE A FEW MONTHS FROM NOW. SCHOOL JUST NEVER FELT LIKE THE NEXT STEP IN MY JOURNEY AND I COULDN'T FIGURE OUT WHY BUT ONCE I MADE THE DECISION IN MY MIND I WASN'T GOING TO SCHOOL IN THE FALL, I FELT AN OVERWHELMING PEACEFUL FEELING. I TOLD MY PARENTS ABOUT IT AND THEY SAID THEY HAD BEEN FEELING THAT WAY TOO ABOUT ME SERVING A MISSION. THEY JUST WANTED ME TO MAKE THAT DECISION MYSELF WITHOUT ANY OF THEIR INFLUENCE. I'M STILL A LITTLE SHOCKED WITH MYSELF. I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M GOING TO DO THIS. I'M ONE OF THE SHYEST PEOPLE I KNOW AND I'M GOING TO GO TO ANOTHER STATE, POSSIBLY COUNTRY, AND TELL COMPLETE STRANGERS ABOUT THE CHURCH. I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. BUT I CAN'T IGNORE THIS FEELING.WOW. THIS IS ABSOLUTELY CRAZY.